Oh friend. I don’t know what brought you here today, whether you lost your baby before you ever had the chance to hold her or you held your baby for the first and the last time all at the same time or maybe you nursed and swaddled and cuddled and even had sleepless nights with a baby that your arms now ache to hold. No matter what brought you here, I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. My heart aches with you.
And no matter what brought you here, know that your pain is real, your loss is real, and you matter. You are not here by an accident and I desperately want you to know that you are loved, you are valued, you are known. Not one tear has gone unnoticed. Not one prayer has gone unheard.
You have kept count of my tossings; put my tears in your bottle. Psalm 56.8
When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles. The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all. Psalm 34:17-19
In the spring of 2006 I experienced loss for the first time when I miscarried our first baby. The emotional and physical pain was horrendous. The pregnancy had been a surprise and the unexpected nature of the loss led to much confusion. Why would God give and then take away? Had I done something wrong?
In the fall of 2008, we welcomed our second born son, Aaden Sage Proffitt. He was just 15 months younger than his big brother Andrew. I was ecstatic to be a mom of two boys who were so close in age. Brothers who would be best friends. On November 15, 2008, just shy of 6 weeks old, Aaden died in his sleep of unknown causes.
Since that day, I have been walking a journey that looked quite differently than I ever imagined, one of grief and pain and sorrow and a deep longing for eternity. See, grief never fully ends. I will miss Aaden Sage Proffitt forever. And yet amidst the grief, amidst the loss something remarkable happened, I experienced joy and hope. My desire is that The Morning would be a place where you can be reminded that you are not alone in this journey and that it would be a place of comfort, peace, and restoration; a place where you can find hope and joy again.
You can read more of my grief journey here. These are unedited writings dating back to early 2009.
WEEPING MAY LAST FOR THE NIGHT, BUT JOY COMES WITH THE MORNING.
WHAT IS THE MORNING?
The Morning is a community of hope for women finding joy after miscarriage, stillbirth or infant loss.
We provide opportunities for community that will to exist to be a reminder that you are not alone in your loss. We also provide resources to help you navigate through your loss with hope.
The Morning is for anyone who is walking through grief. Whether you are a mama who has experienced loss or you are a friend or family member to someone walking this journey, this place is for you.
Our desire is to provide specific resources for those experiencing loss as well friends and family members walking alongside.
HOW THE MORNING BEGAN
THE MORNING NEWS
We have a big vision for The Morning and it is currently only in it’s earliest stages of development, if you are interested in being a part of the long-term vision, contact us here.